Well it’s been awhile since I’ve wrote anything on here… I’m just laying in bed thinking about my life. I love my life right now. Everything seems so perfect to me. My family is by far the strongest family I’ve ever met. Everyone is so loving and caring.. My friends that I talk to, as in my best friends.. Kara, Madisyn, Maegan, and Bethany… I love them as my best friends. Bethany was a bitch to me last night and I really don’t know why. I hate Rob and she knows I don’t like him. He is such a trouble maker… My love life is amazing right now. After everything with Alan I never thought I would ever be as happy with anyone else as I was with him. Well I am happy right now. Hopefully one day I will be happier then I ever was. Austin and I are perfect. It’s so hard to explain our relationship. We go way back!! But right now I wouldn’t change anything about us. He is the prefect boyfriend and I am so glad he is giving me another chance to make things work this time! Lately I have been thinking a lot about how much I’ve changed in the years. I have changed a lot. I am becoming the person I’ve always wanted to become…. I can’t wait for all these feelings with Alan go away. But sometimes I randomly think about him still. Just why he did what he did and why it ended the way it did? I am glad it’s over but I hate unanswered questions… I am still confused. I try not to talk bad about him but sometimes I can’t help myself but to think about how gross he is now…steroids? acne? alcoholic? tattoos? WTF! Anyways I don’t care about all that. I just can’t wait for the day where I come out on top with every thing!!

“Love me at my worst
and understand that I will
be better for you.”
– Daily Haiku on Love by Tyler Knott Gregson (via tylerknott)

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